Wow, I need to take a minute and praise God!
I woke up this morning with the idea to be very intentional and mindful to meditate on God’s word this morning. Being mindful and intentional about leaning into His love and listening for the Father to speak to me and tell me what I needed today. Quietly I was laying there, listening for the Father and the two words I heard were “strength” and “power“. Then came- “get up, this is your get to today”.
I headed to the garage for my workout and I got on to Revelation Wellness TV. (If y’all don’t know what Rev Well TV is, you need to check it out @ http://www.revelationwellness.org)
There I was scrolling along looking for a workout letting the Father guide me when I felt compelled to stop at Kara Redmond Osborne’s workout from Wellness Witness.
As soon as I started the video I knew the Father was speaking to me…the scripture below is the one that went with the workout.
2 Corinthians 12: 7-10;
” Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships,in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. ”
Wow! Just what I needed! How lovely our Father is to know exactly what we need and be so kind to gift it to us when we ask and then listen.
I have often asked, “Why God? Why am I not coming along as far as I think I should be by now in terms of my bondage to food and bondage over my weight? Why?? I am learning such good stuff in Revelation Wellness but I’m not healed?? Why not God? Why?? Am I blocking your blessings with my stubbornness? ”
And it occurred to me…none of us will truly be healed while we are on this side of Heaven. We live in a broken and fallen world. I went on to hear the message I was to receive.
It is in my pain and my brokenness that I am able to help others, help others relate, show others my failures and my difficulties so they know they are not alone. Help others get healthy, whole, free and show them that I’m real. I’m broken. Just like them. Just like you. I need Jesus and I can’t do it in my own strength. And it’s not a one and your done kind of thing. It’s a continual process. In my pain is the answer to my pain. God’s plans are bigger for me than I can even imagine now. I need to constantly rely on him and if I was magically healed or cured of my body image issues and to my bondage over my weight and food, I wouldn’t rely on and need God like I do and that may led me to becoming prideful and arrogant.
The truth is, as long as I’m not staying stuck in the same place and as long as I keep my eyes on Him and let Him guide me and give me strength, I’m right where I’m suppose to be! Praise God!!
Keep going, you are not alone, you are right where you are supposed to be. Be Loved my Beloved.